Eating Disorder Awareness

I say this to myself all the time "Why can't I just be thin?!?" Its not fun. I cry at night and it hurts to always worry. I have an eating disorder. ED is real. Its not just from being a normal girl saying "ugh im fat" no... I have diabetes and a thyroid disorder. I was made fun of all my life for being over weight. I dont think I can get an ED but my therypist says I think like an Aneroxic. She says I have one and its jsut getting worse. And thats when I realized......its really bad...